So in the life of Marilyn Monroe my mother Gladys was mentally ill for she was highly religious and had an affair with the man who was my biological father who I resembled through the eyes and nose not my mother's husband.
My mother Gladys dreamed of a more glamorous life she was attracted therefore to Frank who was working for the studios in Hollywood at that time. They did have a passionate affair and all the dreams unrealized I inherited and did in that lifetime. The terrible thing is that Gladys loved god so much she gave her mind up for it lost her mind in unworthiness that god would not love here for the affair went against her upbringing and religion. So that was placing god outside herself in worship and self judgement. Sick from passion she could not have with a man she loved she went insane as well. That then is a religious fanatic who is insane from such fervor and self judgement in the end through trying to break free from it the guilt is huge.
Marilyn as a toddler was exposed to this experience, walking in on the sex act of her mother in their clothing half off sometimes in the living room after waking from a nap usually and was disliked by Frank during this time, not sure what they we're doing confused and upset yelled at to get out. Gladys later felt guilty about this. That is why Marilyn in adulthood was ingratiating to men to the hilt, to be liked by them but found it caused people to take too many liberties and relationships failed. In this lifetime I had no problems with this. I found my inner authority.
This life I wanted to solve what breaks a mind what a mind is how it works and I did it and also why I'm very hard to break psychologically for I see I want to see everything not be in denial about things in front of me. I did it this lifetime. I do not have a fragile mind. I am also not hardened to life which is not a protection mechanism that works it ages you makes you bitter. I don't want to be like those who are that way it is toxic to me to be that way so I stay joyous.
In conflict I look in this life for the source for the persons truth to see if they have lost sanity or not in the moment of deciding violence. I have to to see if their hostile aggression is warranted or not. In law the warrant for arrest is to cease warranted violence if they disagree it was. How ironic.
In death I flew to her she sat outdoors amongst trees I was pure spirit as mind now and was there being the trees and sunlight above her. I know she felt me and I wanted her to know this was god not some religious creation she lost her mind to in worship and self judgement. In the end they don't know till they die then they're all embarrassed at the dogma of heaven or hell and hyperspace still lets them in in spite of the ignorance they had believing in the bull shit. A family member may be a point of light away from your face beside you there is no heaven or hell. That is religious dogma on humanity that has them shaking in their beds if they did something really bad if god will forgive them if they don't know they are it a divine recorder and they must forgive the self. If they cannot they create karma and come back for some sort of retribution on the self to act it out. It is very self-righteous behavior. Alexandra of Denmark did this about poor children she could not help enough she cried she did not want the castle the jewels and was born in to poverty shortly after being put into foster care so it goes you see. It is self righteous drama with the self to be worthy in the eyes of 'god' we forget we are to act out to remember we created the circumstances of the karma to reveal we are god! And if we don't realize this were really in trouble for life after life after life. Is it embarrassment now we did it to ourselves to the self-righteous entity again? Or do we realize what were doing?
Without religion it is more difficult to do this to ourselves. We have to look at the anatomy of what the hell we are what is standing there incarnate firing in the brain and for me tht was a hell of a lot more interesting than self-righteous karmic creation for another lifetime. I released all Karma from Marilyn Monroe life and set out early on to crack consciousness what it was what we are standing there and what the mind is. In this life it is Blue Matrix Energetics my life's work and it has many answers to that contemplation finally.
This life I wanted to solve what breaks a mind what a mind is how it works and I did it and also why I'm very hard to break psychologically for I see I want to see everything not be in denial about things in front of me. I did it this lifetime. I do not have a fragile mind. I am also not hardened to life which is not a protection mechanism that works it ages you makes you bitter. I don't want to be like those who are that way it is toxic to me to be that way so I stay joyous.
In conflict I look in this life for the source for the persons truth to see if they have lost sanity or not in the moment of deciding violence. I have to to see if their hostile aggression is warranted or not. In law the warrant for arrest is to cease warranted violence if they disagree it was. How ironic.
In death I flew to her she sat outdoors amongst trees I was pure spirit as mind now and was there being the trees and sunlight above her. I know she felt me and I wanted her to know this was god not some religious creation she lost her mind to in worship and self judgement. In the end they don't know till they die then they're all embarrassed at the dogma of heaven or hell and hyperspace still lets them in in spite of the ignorance they had believing in the bull shit. A family member may be a point of light away from your face beside you there is no heaven or hell. That is religious dogma on humanity that has them shaking in their beds if they did something really bad if god will forgive them if they don't know they are it a divine recorder and they must forgive the self. If they cannot they create karma and come back for some sort of retribution on the self to act it out. It is very self-righteous behavior. Alexandra of Denmark did this about poor children she could not help enough she cried she did not want the castle the jewels and was born in to poverty shortly after being put into foster care so it goes you see. It is self righteous drama with the self to be worthy in the eyes of 'god' we forget we are to act out to remember we created the circumstances of the karma to reveal we are god! And if we don't realize this were really in trouble for life after life after life. Is it embarrassment now we did it to ourselves to the self-righteous entity again? Or do we realize what were doing?
Without religion it is more difficult to do this to ourselves. We have to look at the anatomy of what the hell we are what is standing there incarnate firing in the brain and for me tht was a hell of a lot more interesting than self-righteous karmic creation for another lifetime. I released all Karma from Marilyn Monroe life and set out early on to crack consciousness what it was what we are standing there and what the mind is. In this life it is Blue Matrix Energetics my life's work and it has many answers to that contemplation finally.
Some racy photos from my collection that I found from the pin up series that are very rare including a picture from my last film in that lifetime.
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