THE ART OF NON ATTACHMENT

So in the life of mine pre this one as Marilyn Monroe I had a mother who went insane from religious self judgement and the mother took the child away for it was not the old father's was her affair's child she put me in an orphanage then I was put into foster care.  I lived in foster care my whole life and hated all of them so in high school I had a new one each year.  Most of the families did it for money they had too many kids as it was and wanted another to help pay the bills only we cost something. That was when I was little.  Po sessions would go missing and if you had older siblings we wore their old clothing. Brothers would leer at me when I was developing a teen body and so did some of the fathers.  I would report them all to social services if they were abusive in any way and was removed usually to a new home or of they were unclean with unsuitable environment to raise children.  

Think about it what would your life be like if you had a new family each year and school with new teachers and friends?  I had straight A's I was a good student clean and considerate.  What I learned is you cannot get attached to anyone for too long or you loose them any way so I stayed friendly but let go easily later after crying my eyes out leaving several homes where I had made friends with siblings.  All my life this life I have the same trait if I leave a person or residence I never look back if I was not happy there.  I only remember the ones I liked. So I wondered about this my whole life because I don't keep in touch with school people from childhood most others did with one or two friends but people move on have families so I never found it worked for me. James Dean was the same lost his family lived with his aunt and uncle was in an orphanage as well dropped small bundles of cash at bums if he had enough for his bills only.  We did not cling to people or addresses we were free spirits and any clinging on my part usually ended in disaster.  So it is funny when there are drawn out teachings in modern new age about non attachment for people who tended to cling to possessions and people.  I gave clothes away to charity auctions I could not bear someone making a lot of money on my old clothing mostly and gave it for charity. I had nearly no jewels that life for Queen Alexandra had the finest I've seen the life before of dresses and jewels so I was not big on jewels not having the budget to buy the ones I was accustomed to so why bother?  Studio salaries were not exorbitant the are much better now we lived an upper barely upper class life with a mortgage and a couple of cars the studio paid my mortgage.  I was alright and had Eunice to pay for and a small flat in NY I had also to visit while studying there.  So when you travel a lot and move and have no life of attachment it is ironic to be so as a rich star.  I was born this life without any craving for fame.  I would ask myself, do I want to be famous in this life time?  Then I would say well if I'm not I can sit at a cafe no one bothers me only this did not happen all the time people would notice me chat me up tell me I looked like a model even asked if I was an exotic dancer during gym days when I was sitting in little shorts and was in good shape.  So it was not to be and the ET's made me famous built monuments with people from my writing all over cities in North America Saudi Dubai (Ishtar like construction) and Italy France and Spain also participated Portugal, Germany and maybe more I'm not sure from different lives of mine and this one they took things the Aryana one.  I did not care I had no attachment to any of it but thought it was wild and very enchanting.  I care about nothing as holding on to it so I sit relaxed to do business and because everyone cared too much fighting I was poor sitting poor the devil he'd visit me saying I'm busy with them.  Then he'd visit without them and watch me work on his breaks from it.  I wanted to put him on a beach somewhere to retire forever from all that nagging.  He  so old with a young face so am I guess if I was Inanna.  Odd friends we became. The other blue birds flying I call them the men blue birds they are like this the andromedans with. Never call them a flower they get furious it means female genitalia in andromedan no matter how pretty blue they are! In andromedan, 'flower of my eye to make love to you I desire' is also an expression for women only who are lovers or it is inappropriate conduct unbecoming towards a female friend.  I'm not attached to this at all re flowers topic their culture they have their modes of expression obviously it is good to communicate with them.  However they have one woman to every ten men so they are appreciated highly there.

Meanwhile I'm painting writing and teaching BME on video I finished mostly did not waste time waiting while they all debated when I can teach again and go to Hollywood this life the blond who reincarnated who is her Marilyn but new also so it will be very interesting and I still love comedy so nothing will be too seriously stuffy with me.   

RELIGIOUS FANATICISM TOOK MARILYN'S MOTHER'S MIND

So in the life of Marilyn Monroe my mother Gladys was mentally ill for she was highly religious and had an affair with the man who was my biological father who I resembled through the eyes and nose not my mother's husband.

My mother Gladys dreamed of a more glamorous life she was attracted therefore to Frank who was working for the studios in Hollywood at that time.  They did have a passionate affair and all the dreams unrealized I inherited and did in that lifetime.  The terrible thing is that Gladys loved god so much she gave her mind up for it lost her mind in unworthiness that god would not love here for the affair went against her upbringing and religion. So that was placing god outside herself in worship and self judgement. Sick from passion she could not have with a man she loved she went insane as well.  That then is a religious fanatic who is insane from such fervor and self judgement in the end through trying to break free from it the guilt is huge.   

Marilyn as a toddler was exposed to this experience, walking in on the sex act of her mother in their clothing half off sometimes in the living room after waking from a nap usually and was disliked by Frank during this time, not sure what they we're doing confused and upset yelled at to get out. Gladys later felt guilty about this. That is why Marilyn in adulthood was ingratiating to men to the hilt, to be liked by them but found it caused people to take too many liberties and relationships failed. In this lifetime I had no problems with this.  I found my inner authority. 

This life I wanted to solve what breaks a mind what a mind is how it works and I did it and also why I'm very hard to break psychologically for I see I want to see everything not be in denial about things in front of me. I did it this lifetime.  I do not have a fragile mind. I am also not hardened to life which is not a protection mechanism that works it ages you makes you bitter.  I don't want to be like those who are that way it is toxic to me to be that way so I stay joyous.

In conflict I look in this life for the source for the persons truth to see if they have lost sanity or not in the moment of deciding violence.  I have to to see if their hostile aggression is warranted or not.  In law the warrant for arrest is to cease warranted violence if they disagree it was.  How ironic.

In death I flew to her she sat outdoors amongst trees  I was pure spirit as mind now and was there being the trees and sunlight above her.  I know she felt me and I wanted her to know this was god not some religious creation she lost her mind to in worship and self judgement.  In the end they don't know till they die then they're all embarrassed at the dogma of heaven or hell and hyperspace still lets them in in spite of the ignorance they had believing in the bull shit.   A family member may be a point of light away from your face beside you there is no heaven or hell.  That is religious dogma on humanity that has them shaking in their beds if they did something really bad if god will forgive them if they don't know they are it a divine recorder and they must forgive the self.  If they cannot they create karma and come back for some sort of retribution on the self to act it out.  It is very self-righteous behavior.  Alexandra of Denmark did this about poor children she could not help enough she cried she did not want the castle the jewels and was born in to poverty shortly after being put into foster care so it goes you see.  It is self righteous drama with the self to be worthy in the eyes of 'god' we forget we are to act out to remember we created the circumstances of the karma to reveal we are god! And if we don't realize this were really in trouble for life after life after life.  Is it embarrassment now we did it to ourselves to the self-righteous entity again?  Or do we realize what were doing?

Without religion it is more difficult to do this to ourselves. We have to look at the anatomy of what the hell we are what is standing there incarnate firing in the brain and for me tht was a hell of a lot more interesting than self-righteous karmic creation for another lifetime. I released all Karma from Marilyn Monroe life and set out early on to crack consciousness what it was what we are standing there and what the mind is.  In this life it is Blue Matrix Energetics my life's work and it has many answers to that contemplation finally.

Some racy photos from my collection that I found from the pin up series that are very rare including a picture from my last film in that lifetime. 

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POETRY

Friendships in the time of Marilyn Monroe we laughed and hung out yet the war was raging and we did have ET spies thought they promoted almost exclusively good cheer to us all to be happy and to love our lives in USA during WWII.  This time now on Earth it is odd we see the ones who are visionaries and are gifted wanting to dance onstage, to make us all thrilled, to laugh to cry and to be and then they are stunned numbed by wars in the skies and are not there they are then strategy and are not themselves as they aim to survive to hit the bottom line and then we cry for our friends who are lost to this demise.  They hold dear in their souls the cherished little fire of inspiration to have a smile for a friend, good will, good cheer, something inspiring created to share and where are they in those traumatized brains made to get up to go to function to not be victims to be like a machine of denial anything is wrong?  So they heal without the same deep look into the eyes and knowing in the stillness of the galaxy felt all around us.  Some andromedans are this desperate:  Their mothers come in the house that had a small war there the young man swept, broken plants under the furniture, hid the nude girlfriend in the closet oh yes tht is on Earth, threw out the dinner that fell all over the carpet and mom's home.  That is how stressed they are at times in the skies so we are like dolls reprimanded, sat down put to the talks while they palpitate above us during wars they know deeply are not correct for the awakening masses my eye witness of them they are not used to the revelation by humans it is new it is called they came here for this rub for evolution so the su su of the jerk is not going to help them this time in a humans mind who sent them.  That has been Earth.  I say to everyone get it out yell scream talk about it all, 'hi I'm blue skinned what the fuck is wrong with you afraid of me because I'm a large man? You were larger than me up to 100 feet tall long ago where the hell are you reincarnated in there?  My brother is scaring you?!  Tell him to fuck off! ' Is more the type of conversions we need to have.  If they re non participatory scared of us awake because its easier running us that is the project child of the andromedans flying to rearrange them not me I told them.  

In love with the authentic.  Authentic coffee, food, perfume, good hair dye job , shirt it is us feeling our way into gratitude were still alive at times that is OK don't abuse us to shop us to death. We are vulnerable or sociopath, violent people possibly emerging if you break this in us I've seen it in humanity we need to keep the cherish your life sentiment or we're fucked up.  

So in the biological matrix of humanity where we miss one another for it is vulnerable to threat so we emerge then hide like some ground hog.   The dead are tiny and have tiny conversations sped up ridiculously in hyperspace they re like buzzing bees in the ear.   Yeah I knew all for this for years they lie I'm stupid maybe that is why it's in the Marilyn pages.  Her they wanted to get rid of reincarnate then its the new on shes gone.  I said no way I'd recreate her shes the quiet shy lover of deeply moving songs, words pictures perfume is me I love that in me.  I'm less emotional this life but I still see and feel as much as I did more than that life even for artistic crafting of great movies and writing.

So I want the andromedan men to remember near the ocean they sing they are over god here us gods to revere us awakening not worrying it is harder to control  but more satisfying.  Yes when you blue people are scared too don't be the strategy machine get away from stress go sit with a flower look at it touch it tenderly look at our sun that still shines and re group your mind to sanity please. Blue lovers of great depth of observation also they are.  The Earth is like a psyche ward every day all over the place we have to heal our minds all day long not to lose it so that is why many don't need to go into one actually for they live already in constant mind management not to crack covering everything up as told so when they get to talk never swing the grid so they can't so their hearts go not good not good be unafraid and dive into evolution. I grew my gardens without manure I prefer it that way no methane smell.